Baby, It's Cold Outside

I live in Wisconsin. And it's cold. You'd think that it wouldn't come as a surprise to me that it's cold since I've lived here as long as I have... but there is no way to prepare for that moment when you walk out of the house and are hit with that first blast of cold arctic air. I do have an indoor/outdoor thermometer which I usually remember to check each morning. It helps me to determine the amount of nagging I have to do in order to make sure the kids' extremities are covered and/or how lenient I can be without bordering on child neglect when it's cold. I saw 10 degrees on the thermometer and cringed. Being that it's the first day back to school since winter break started, we were all kind of cranky to begin with. To be forced to brave the elements on the same day was a cruel cold winter joke. We've been spoiled with temperatures in the 30's and even 40's so far with no snow. NO SNOW! Until Sunday, that is. We got an inch or two of snow and then it got so cold that it's mostly ice now. It'll be back into the 40's this week, which again... very strange. We had green grass up until the weekend. Did I mention that it's January? And that I live in Wisconsin? I know that you didn't come here to get a weather report though.
Do you remember a show called Starting Over on CBS about 10 years ago? Wait. It was on NBC about 7 years ago. Close enough. Annnyway.... It was a show were a bunch of women live in a house together and work with a life coach. They all have different issues they deal with. One of the women of the second season (I think?) was one of the Braxton sisters. She was working on a goal to become more authentic. I used to wonder what the hell that meant. More authentic? So... more... you? You are who you are. You can't be anything but who you are. Right? Some people say that the true person you are is the way you are when you are alone. But aren't you the person you are with others as well? I don't get the concept of being "authentic" because no matter what, you're as you as you can get. That being said, I've been in situations this last year where I'll be doing something or saying something and think, "Do I look like I know what I'm talking about? I feel powerful. I feel like an adult. I feel important." Yet at the same time it'll feel like I'm playing the role and not really being powerful or important. Does that make sense? It's almost like I'm thinking about my body language, expressions, and wondering how I present myself at that moment because I want to be seen as an adult and like I know what I'm doing. Does everyone do that? I don't know if I'm making much sense. I get so enthusiastic about feeling important or grown up that maybe I come across as too willing to be in a leadership role? I sometimes want the title or recognition so much that I forget there is real work that goes along with that. Then I get overwhelmed or I lose interest and I don't do what I agreed to do.
Maybe I am trying to say that I don't feel authentic. Maybe I feel fake. But feeling those things and that way still makes me... me. If anyone reads this and understands, e-mail me. I could use a pat on the head.
I have so much that I want to write about but it's almost 1:30 in the morning and I have things I have to do before I sleep yet.
Is anyone reading this?